Don't try to control all Knobs. You shall be Overwhelmed!!!

Don’t try to control all knobs. You shall be overwhelmed.

We are creatures that seek control over situations we are involved in. We start paying deep attention into how scenarios disclosed upon our lives, we then realize that indeed we have some control. We then start controlling or try to control our demeanors in coming situations with the aim of reaching a certain desired outcome. We, at first, feel so successful in doing that and we like it and continue doing that.

We then start working on our emotions as we like certain emotions over others in different contexts. So, we seek control over our emotions but we realize that it is really hard, not as easy as the external mechanical world. We feel frustrated and develop a heightened pedantic nature of analysis and probe our emotions deeper trying to control them. We feel badly agitated since we are unable to do it. We feel sad when we want to feel good. We find ourselves desperate when we want to feel hopeful. We can’t feel touched when we want to feel touched. We feel detached when we want to feel connected and we feel connected when we want to feel detached. Chaos lurks in.

If we are among those who are adamant and don’t get convinced easily, we don’t give up, but we ask why? We then struggle and go against our inner torrent with the aim of understanding what is it that triggers that when I don’t it to be triggered or what is it that doesn’t get triggered when I want it to be triggered. Puzzling indeed. Some of us come to realize that what evokes emotionality is all out there and part is processed in here. This sentence in itself explains that it is not possible to be explained. Everything around us gets into us through our senses, gets processed within us, and this processing is a lot. A lot. Hard to explain, probably improbable to explain. After the processing in our systems, something happens, an output is created. We feel what we want to feel or what we don’t want to feel or what we don’t know how to express. We then try to point at what evokes a certain feeling and we get to understand some things. We start realizing and understanding. We put control upon external things, putting limitations on what could gain access within us and what is not allowed.

They say that we should at least convince ourselves that something caused another thing instead of many things caused something. If we say that something that caused something, we feel in control at pointing at that thing, but if we say many things caused something and we know few of them then we feel out of control, and that is not a good feeling I guess. Even if we are unable to understand all factors acting in the creation of a situation or an emotion, we should still point at factors we feel are the creators and we should work on them. Actually, it is evident that indeed everything is subject to many factors but the effects of factors vary and some factors are so critical in creating an outcome and changing that single factor can cause dramatic alterations since the other factors are mere noises in the background.

Being so harsh upon ourselves is really badly harsh. We reprimand our beings that deserve empathy. We admonish ourselves of not being able to reach places while we forget that we couldn’t control all buttons. We then find ourselves losing more control over our feelings, situations, and even our own beings. We end up in a state of punishing ourselves while trying to feel not being punished. We push ourselves into a state of being completely fucked up.